Last month we were able to go home again for my sister Kate's wedding, it was so great to be home even though it was only a 5 day crazy trip! Growing up I always wanted to move away and go some place warm, I always said I would. Well I have, even though this is some place warm, it is a very ugly place, I would have chosen Florida. However, weather is only a minor factor in happiness, moving away I realized family is the number one thing in life.
Every family goes through their ups and downs, but at the end of the day they are the ones who you can and want to rely on. When I'm home I'm so happy, I love that I have a big huge crazy family, now that I'm older I can finally hang out with my older siblings and not be that annoying little sister, we are friends now, and I can't wait to be home and see them all more often. Every month in my family there is at least one get together, between a holiday, someones birthday, cookouts, celebrations etc. and I am so sick of missing out, but I am so happy to know we are in the "home stretch" so this year was the last Memorial Day cookout I will miss...etc...
May has turned out to be a great month as well. We finally traded in our car for Jeep Grand Cherokee, so happy with that decision, no more struggling with trying to fit everything in our little car. I think the breaking point was the ride home from the airport, where our luggage was piled up in the front seat, and trunk, I was in the back with Cam with my feet up on the seat because they couldn't fit on the floor, yah that was a fun hour and a half car ride!!!
May 6th also marked 2 years since our sweet baby girl went to heaven. It's hard to believe it's been that long, there are days it feels like it was just yesterday, and then there are days when I think to myself did that really happen? Eric and I have come such a long way since then, we went from being at complete rock bottom, to now feeling the most love we have ever felt. This year we chose to be happy, and celebrate the life she lived, and lives in heaven, I thank her for the many blessings we have received and will continue to receive.
We decided to go to Sea World, and smile and laugh rather than sit home and dwell. I'm not going to lie of course I was sad, of course I cried that morning when I woke up, I wouldn't be human if I did. But 2 years later, if I cried all day, and laid in bed and wallowed, I wouldn't be healthy, not for myself, and certainly not for Cameron. There comes a point when grief has to be put in it's place, it doesn't mean you forget, because you never do, it means your life has to move forward. I am so proud I have been able to do this on my own, of course with the help of Eric and Cameron, but grief is a personal thing, and I am proud to stand here strong today knowing I helped myself get to this point.
Mother's day was also great this year, thank you to everyone for all the love it was so sweet, and I'm SO glad no one said "Happy 1st Mother's day" I was so worried someone would slip and say that, what a dagger that would have been! My boys treated me very well that day and it was amazing to wake up and snuggle and kiss my baby, I can't wait until next year when he can say I love you to me on that day!!
Last week Eric signed his NARSUM which is pretty much the whole summary for his Med Board, that is one of the big steps in the process, just a few more steps and we are out!!!!!! No official date yet, just hearsay but we are down to a few months if not less! Texas has been an experience, good, bad and indifferent. Not everyone is cut out for the military life, I think if I wasn't close with my family or if I had fair weather friends it would be easy to move away. Thankfully that is not the case, and before I know it I will be back home and back to my real life!!!!
