Today is August 19th International Day of Hope, a day that was started 3 years ago to break down the walls on pregnancy/infant loss. Many people suffer in silence, and don't speak about their babies. Thankfully when it comes to my Isabella I am an open book. I know so many people are afraid to ask or bring her up, while I don't always like retelling my story, I appreciate when people sincerely want to know... not people being nosey, that happened a lot when we first met her, my inbox/friend requests went through the roof just people hoping that by stalking my page they could find out.
On the subject of Isabella, I would like to say I am so so proud of my amazing hubby, he has felt the need to be strong for far too long and held a lot in. And he is now taking the steps he needs to heal, it warms my heart :) he even came with me to my support group yesterday and opened up! It was nice too their was another guy there for him to talk to, because in this situation men and women grieve very differently.
This week I helped my mom book her flight down here in November I am SOOOOOO excited, can't believe she is flying for the first time in over 30 years! All for me....well the baby and me hahah this is the longest stretch I have ever gone without seeing her, and I hate it as much as she does. Can't wait til 2013 and to move back home!!! I always used to dream of moving away from RI, but living away I realized I love my itty bitty state and I love that my entire family is all in one location!
Oh and 29 weeks today!! This pregnancy is FLYING by!! I feel like just yesterday we found out, I can't wait to schedule my induction and can really start the countdown! I'm so glad he will be born in October, it is the best month of the year to be born in ;) It's still funny to me I will have a little Texan baby, never in a million years would I have thought that especially coming from RI!!!
Well, that's all I got for now.....in honor of today I will Re-post my story, even though it is here on an older blog....*WARNING* it is sad, and for those of us who had to live it may make you really sad, but for anyone curious this is what happened, it helped me a lot to share my store...and remember to all my pregnant friends...KICKS COUNT AND ALWAYS TRUST YOUR GUT!!!! xoxox
http://facesofloss.com/2010/08/180.html#more-180
My baby girls beautiful feet taken by NILMDTS.....I have tons of gorgeous pictures of her, but those I only share with people who are really close to me
So I realized I had intended to start blogging last year, and never followed through! My previous blog is my personal story on facesofloss.com it is about my angel, and I remember finding it therapeutic after I had written it. Since I am thousands of miles away from those I love most (except my amazing hubby and pretty mocha girl) I thought it would be a good idea to start blogging about what's going on in my world for those who don't know!
Anyone reading this should know we are happily pregnant again! It's such an exciting time in our lives, as well as scary. Even though I have faith, I still have my fears which is normal, especially now entering my 3rd Trimester, my impeding induction excites and scares the hell out of me all at once! I had an amazing dream the other night about being in the hospital and holding my son and staring into his eyes. It was so realistic and I couldn't stop thinking about it, especially his eyes, I think because I never got to see Bella's eyes so I always wonder what they looked like.
Friday we had an ultrasound, and got some 3D images, it was the first time we have seen his features, and just as I knew he is extremely handsome and looks so much like his daddy! He was being so stubborn and would not move his hands from his face, so we only got a few clear images. I think we should name him Eric Jr. he is a stubborn Italian just like his father! But he's cute so he can get away with it!!
He is measuring 9 days ahead which is good since I will be getting an early induction don't want him to be too tiny, but I also don't want him to be huge, and I pray he keeps those hands away from his face for my sake lol
I feel like October is so far, yet so close at the same time. I can't wait, I feel like I still have a million things to do but I know it will all get done in time! I'm glad we have the nursery in progress, before I got pregnant again I thought that I wouldn't want to buy anything until after he was born, I am so happy I thought wrong. While there is always a cynical voice in the back of my head......it's waaayy in the back and I'm focused on the positives! I can't wait to see some of our family who is going to come down to visit! My mother-in-law "Nannie" will be here for the birth, if she has it her way she will lock the doctor out and deliver him herself lol (She is a labor and delivery nurse and just slightly baby obsessed) then shortly after my Mom will be making her first plane trip in at least 30 years all to come see her grandson....now that is huge!! She has crazy claustrophobia and will be drugged up.....good luck to my sister for traveling with her!!!
